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ggrr i am sick of drama mama. i just need to chill and be the laid-back fun-loving jenn that i once was. thanks to my good friends in so cal, i was able to do just that this past weekend

knott's berry farm was a blast to the past. it brought back memories of being a kid.. being on hyperdrive 24/7 until i crash at night, getting scared and nervous about riding roller coasters. and as we were plunging down the xcelerator (or whatever it's called) i realized, i'm too old for this.
but spending the day with mr. third trimester (and getting bbq and coffee) was fun and a half :)

and saturday was a day full of (good) surprises. kris, jane, and i bummed in several l.a. coffee shops, drinking black tea, ordering dessert, and chatting and smoking up a storm. i guess we were planning on shopping at melrose, but we were sitting on our butts more than we were shopping. oh well, i will go shopping there some other time. among the coffee shops were highland grounds, urth, and insomnia.
i also got to eat pink's chili dog, and got a phone call from the one and only big sis! aahh i love talking to that girl- we always share good advice and encouragements.. things we want and need to hear. i can't wait to see you when i come up this week!!
audris joined us to go clubbing at bang. the music selection totally rocked. indie rock and brit pop - waayy different from the hip hopping parties that i am so used to. but even tho i was so obviously out of place, i had a blast~ the place reminded me of the club that my co-workers and i went to last summer.. where i got kicked out after 20 min. yeah. that was no fun.
by the time we left, 1:30am, audris and i were totally passing out from fatigue, but we decided to go to jerry's famous deli and grub. aahh matzo ball soup is so comforting late at night..

yeah, so that was the fun part of the weekend. there were lotsa not-so-fun parts, but i guess that's not really what xanga is for. let's just say, i realized i cannot make others happy by the things i do - i can only make myself happy. and even though that sounds a bit selfish, we are selfish beings, so sue me.

*white stripes - fell in love with a girl
shoutout to dj lino the philipino cuz i love him sooo much. :)

A positive

my blood and urine test results finally came out-
i will refrain from revealing all the results, but i am in pretty good shape and i finally know my blood type after 19.6 years in the dark!!

today was yet another busy day with dentist and doctors visits. GGRR no more of those for me!! another two novacane shots and two drillings(?), a measles booster shot, and a friggin hour of waiting in the doctor's office. ggrrrr

sopi/lfe camping trip: july 25-27

one of the more interesting trips i have experienced. first night was.. err.. stressful, but it was still fun making fun of daniel for his lack of korean-ness. burro wings too hot for you?? weaksauce!! hahaha. and big 2 aka pisoi aka 13 was the card game of the weekend. jenny and i reigned as champions.
the sun refused to show the next day, but we still had fun at morro bay playing stupid mind trick games: the stick game, black magic, the number game, sculpting game...etc. and at night, i was not myself. hahaha big humongous thank you's to becky, jenny, david, and daniel for all your help. eeuuww i still remember chunkiness.

but best of all, i finally got to meet some of the infamous pledge bros and pledge sisses.
jennay: yay pledge sis! u are crazy, about to embark on yet another road trip. i know u guys will have so many laughs on the way there cuz u always got funny things to talk about! :)
fungus: you were like our entertainment for the weekend. i had fun just watching and laughing at your funniness. and the nicknames.. whether they like it or not, they will stick!
ivy: crazy driver~ u give us women a bad name!! haha jk :) u are so cute pledge sis!
tammy: it's the tammy show! u are so funny intoxicated p.sis. too bad i didn't get to see u live :)
sandy: star gazing, eh? haha :) i didn't get to talk to u much pledge sis, but i know i will see u at mandatory sopi schtuff sometime in the near future! come up to berkeley to play sometime, k?
sean: big props to you for planning the camping trip and for being 1/4 korean. crown royal next time, yeah?
david: non-korean korean. it was really fun talking to u on the drive up (and thanks for driving down). i'm honored to have been present in the beginnings of a blossoming.. yeah.
daniel: u weaksauce. i'm really sorry about the um.. chunky moisturizing lotion incident. eeuww- let's go to roscoe's and stuff our faces with non-spicy chicken and waffles okay?
eugene: berkeley! berkeley made me do it- ggrrr i will get u back, berkeley! but seriously, i'm so glad i got to meet finally meet the berkeley pb~ i swear i wasn't ignoring u during school (not on purpose at least) :) u better tell your 2 pb's what a cool pledge sis i am!!
carlo: omg i almost forgot your name cuz all i remember is calling you osama! hahaha mr. bin ladin. okay, i swear, thats the last time i call u that. haha u got thrown into the ocean- booo u almost threw me in too
izumi: ggrr i wanna call u by your nickname but u wont let me :( it's okay~ hmm i dont remember talking to u much pb.. maybe next time
doug: funny funny guy. thanks for letting all 100000 of us crash at your place. bodies and sleeping bags everywhere! hope u have fun in slo aka the ultimate boonie watching mtv and gambling
alvin: authentic flour sack- i appreciated your fashion statement :) thrift store shopping is fun, huh! let's hang out in so.cal this summer okay? socal pride!
ken: lovers leap partner~ stop staring at me evilly while playing big 2.. u were freaking me out

now i really wanna go on a trip to cancun~ i hear the nightlife there is perty fun- who's in?? it's gotta be sometime before aug 28th (when i leave for france)
and whaddya think of the thunderstorms and random bits of rain in the middle of july? weirrd..

*chingy - right thurr

numbness

the freakiest/coolest thing happened at the dentist's office today.
while i was about to get two novacane(?) shots to numb my mouth, guess what song played in the background?

WE ARE FAMILY - sister sledge

yea, since i had no one to grab, i started grabbing myself in preparation for the pain (the way i grab people while watching movies), and what a relief to hear our pledge class song! the shots didnt even hurt that much..
aaahhhh i love my beautifys. can't wait to be together this weekend. there will be drunken madness and much fun :)

now it's therapeutic chick flick time with the coolest ahs chica and lino the mandy moore chick flick lover. haahahah

some lyrics from j.lo's - all i have

well im bouncing and I'm out son
I gotta leave you alone

'Cause im good
Holding down my spot
And I'm good
Reppin the girls on the block
And I'm good
I got this thing on lock!
So without me you'll be fine, right?

*j.lo - all i have

this is what happened

warning: may be highly offensive to xy-ers

charlotte and harry (the jewish lawyer) in sex and the city

harry is not the kind of guy charlotte dates. harry is a short, hairy, chubby, pushy, and sweaty lawyer who doesn't possess any of the characteristics that charlotte desires in a man.
she wouldn't have even considered him to be anything more than her divorce lawyer until he made a move on her. he poured his heart out to her, telling her how highly he thinks of her and what a perfect woman she is. at a vulnerable state, charlotte ignored her apprehension and uncertainties and, well, slept with harry.

now, they are in a relationship and are pretty serious. and now, harry tells charlotte that he cannot go any further because she is not jewish. he was okay with sleeping with her before, but now, when she has grown to love him, he doesn't want her anymore?

and charlotte explores judaism and considers becoming jewish for harry.

sound familiar?

it's all about the chase. whether good-looking or ugly, all guys are the same, and all they care about is putting another name on their list of heart-broken girls.
every single guy that passes me by should apologize for being male. but even that wouldn't be enough for me. and don't act like you're the one who's hurt.

#*%& you

battle of the sexes

here, in this conversation about a wedding, is a prime example of the difference between guys and girls:

aleX s Hyun (12:34:09 AM): food wasn't all that great
j e n n 637 (12:34:39 AM): aww
j e n n 637 (12:34:42 AM): where was it?
j e n n 637 (12:34:50 AM): food isnt all that matters in a wedding u know
aleX s Hyun (12:34:54 AM): at my church
aleX s Hyun (12:34:59 AM): haha
aleX s Hyun (12:34:59 AM): haha
aleX s Hyun (12:34:59 AM): yeah it is
aleX s Hyun (12:35:03 AM): what are you talkin about?
j e n n 637 (12:35:21 AM): huh?
aleX s Hyun (12:35:29 AM): food is all that matters

guys- one track mind. seek only satisfaction and things that please them (what do u call that word?)
girls- sensitive. happy to celebrate in other people's happiness and to share in other's sadness.

but we still love alex :)

steam

saddest song in the world that describes how i feel:

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't


I'll close my eyes, then I won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And I will give up this fight


Cause I can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't

*bonnie raitt - i can't make you love me